Life Continues Along in the Same Vein

Bell's is still the same. You can see from the picture. There is no response in my face from any effort to move it. Some of the pictures were grotesque with the effort to move the muscles. I won't show any of them. Little children might see them. It reminds of the ending of the Princess Bride. The irritation is still there. Sometimes I like to believe it is diminishing, but each time I think that shortly thereafter it reappears. I use a lot of eye drops to keep my eye moist. I should begin to use this ointment at night. It comes in a tube and is five tenths percent mineral oil. I think that this has effected my reading or vision. Right now my glasses are so bent out of shape it's impossible to tell. I don't think it's useful to go to the optometrist now. I won't go until Bell's settles down at least, or I can raise my eyebrow.

I don't really go anywhere. I don't go into work. I go out and buy stuff, like food. I have this new way of smoking pot, a vaporizor. There's a bag of vapor sitting over there now. That's probably my biggest problem. It's not smoking pot, it's being stoned all the time. I have no motivation to do anything. Not get up in the morning, not go out, not do anything, not meet people - look at that picture. Smile you say; no, that goes in the "scares little children" category. I took one of those pictures.

This is reversed, or I guess how I would look to an other person.

I live in an apartment next to a shopping center on a busy street. I had to get a white noise machine, i.e., fan, to go to sleep to, but now that I have that I have no trouble sleeping, or might not have any trouble sleeping if I wasn't stoned all the time, all day long. I keep saying that I'm waiting until the irritation from the Bell's goes down because my neurologist suggested that raising my blood pressure might increase the irritation, so exercise is all about raising blood pressure and right now my main preoccupation is with at least getting the irritation to phase out. Right now, it's still painful, in a small way, to touch my inner ear, there is still an irritation behind my ear, an offshoot of the involved nerve.

Me: Smiling. PG13 at least.

Business: we just had a meeting with UBOC. We had exceeded one of our covenants, the loss reserve/AR one. We are having it changed to 3% from 2%. That will relieve some pressure. But, still, there is really nothing for me to do there. Well, that's not entirely true. I have a to do list in the business section.

Now, I'm getting depressed. 09:04. On the other hand, I just learned how to insert space on this page. One Note HelpOne Note Help